The “What-ifs”

The weight carried,
the what-ifs upon bent backs –
(in) worry and (in) wondering,
“now? if not now, when?”
survivors hold this question;
they live in the moment
of continued burden.
how do I share the weight of gathered
memories?
how do I convey these worries?
I add them singly,
one by one,
layering them,
and bend my back to their weight,
asking,
“if not now, when?”